how I cultivate a list of current heroes

I was reading an article about change.org in Time magazine on the couch at my parents’ house where my parents were also reading in their lazy-boy chairs. The writer was describing the founder, Ben Rattray‘s, intonations in a certain way. The writer’s impression was that Ben’s sentences end with an almost endearing rising intonation, rendering declarative sentences interrogative. I had to see for myself.

I fired up YouTube on my iPhone and found the following clip. It’s like being your own newscaster and going to the video segment:

I disagree with the author. Ben sounds more sure of himself. However, his sincerity is certainly genuine. It was as if I was observing Rattray and change.org through the lens of an amazing Time writer, but then was able to go backstage and form my own “second-hand” opinions, that felt oddly “first-hand.”

Meanwhile, my parents patiently continued to read. Ignoring the sounds coming from my iPhone.

Last year, I took off school to hear Jessica Jackley, founder of kiva.org, speak at my college. This clip is not from that event, but captures the essence of what I heard:

Hearing her speak in person, made me realize that personal and professional change have the potential for global implications. Plus, I liked her PowerPoint style: white background, a single photo or 6 word max of san serif black text.

She reminded me of Wendy Kopp, founder of Teach for America (TFA). Someone, incidentally, I read about in Time magazine, and then later met in person when I joined TFA. In both cases, what I was drawn to most was that they began addressing global issues from a place of personal reflection. Translating abstract to concrete.

Wendy Kopp refers to Michelle Rhee, founder of studentsfirst.org and former Chancellor of the DC public schools, in the above video. I support Michelle’s kicka– approach to education reform, but since she’s willing to take on the beast she cuts closer to the bone. She not afraid to get messy. Here she explains her involvement with Teach for America:

Finally, this list would not be complete without a shout-out to Cory Booker, mayor of Newark. This video speaks for itself:

What is most powerful is that none of these people (and many others out there) seek the mantle of hero, but earn it through hard work. Unaware of their superhero suits. Seeking new horizons.

From my parents’ couch to the world. I continue to seek heroes.

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feeling fractured

I’ve lost count of how many blogs I’ve started, and not really abandoned, but sort of lost track of. But I do know that I recently started 2 new blogs in response to the fact that blogs are for specific audiences. This blog is more like a personal journal of rambling thoughts. Whereas, now that I’m moving away to a tropical country on the other side of the world, people have been asking if I’m planning to keep a blog. I do keep a blog (this one, obviously) but I don’t disclose that since I know they’re asking for a fun scrapbook-ish account of my transition and exotic experiences. I’m in awe of people who can keep their life on a breezy conversational plane. I feel like my posts scream “overshare!!”

So in an attempt to address the challenge of giving a small public what they’ve requested, I launched JakartaJackie (the name makes me cringe since it has sort of a rapper lyric, “Jackie in the house!!” quality). I hope to chronicle with honesty, but the lighter side of honesty, and humor my journey from a contented West Michiganian to a hot, sweaty mosquito-ridden Jakartan. My hope is that when I get homesick and my feelings go dark, what will rescue them is a sense of humor that is fit to print.

Another blog I WordPressed into existence is called, school / grade tbd in an attempt to join the amazing blogosphere of teachers who share lessons. I don’t want to be just a taker, I want also to be a giver. Not the spooky kind of giver–this reference is for readers of young adult fiction, but the kind that shares. At the same time, I have always felt like a crazy mad scientist in the classroom with messy experiments that the students and I conduct with multiple variables. So when it comes time to sharing the lessons, I feel the process of trying to nail down what made it work or not work is sometimes complicated–the actual process being the main focus. Or is that a bullsh** way of saying that I’m covering up for a lack of confidence? Or that my inspirations that usually occur at 3 a.m. or in the shower, are difficult to recreate since they have a slapdash quality. Which I rationalize is what life is about so . . . there’s that element that enhances the lesson as well. I hope. A final reason that I don’t share is that I’m a huge adapter and out-right thief of other people’s ideas so I don’t want to seem like a plagiarizer. hmmm . . . In any case, I’d love to join the conversation of amazing teacher ideas with whatever I can contribute.

The following list represents different tiers or pockets of teacher resources that I return to again and again:

  • Pinterest: Clever, adorable Martha-Stewart-style lessons
  • Teachers Pay Teachers: Stuff that works with varying degrees of quality, but at least you’re paying a colleague somewhere in the world, rather than a cog in the major industrial complex of education
  • Projects by Jen: Lots of great ways to collaborate with other classrooms virtually (How does she find the time?)
  • ChartChums: ideas that work from 2 dedicated teachers who you wonder how they have time to share, but convince you that it’s possible for you too
  • two apples a day: the reason for my stalker fan status of Jee Young is evident here

Finally, all of this new blogging has caused me to wonder what is the specific audience for the “friends without id” eclectic blog? I’m not quite sure. I’m hoping it’s a community of friends who are gracious with the meandering first draft quality of posts that may be later polished for a more specific audience elsewhere.

I tentatively post the link to a LiveJournal site I used to keep to record fan-girlish thoughts on music, t.v. shows and movies that I found riveting for a time. Sorry, I just realized many of the posts are marked “private.” I’m shaking my own head as to what would cause some of the posts to be more private than others and what is the point of marking something “private” on a blog?!!

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a personal learning network (pln) story

a personal learning network (pln) story
I do not like them! I do not like PLNs, I do not like them Sam I Am!
A quiet epiphany this year has been that although educational “best practice” (like PLNs and keeping up with professional blogs) can feel unattainable and therefore a reminder of failure, when you find that certain virtual colleague that you can trust for her candidness, well . . . that’s a different story. It’s more of an inspiration. Less a professional obligation than a friendly distant colleague. 

Two Apples a Day has been that for me. I mention it at the risk of sounding like I’m fully and digitally connected. No, I happened to stumble on this site . . . I’ve forgotten how.  It’s pure gold! Really applicable. Heart-felt without being overbearing. A teacher’s dream–the good kind–something you can use in your classroom TOMORROW. Out of the box. The ideas just work.

I will try one in a box. I will try one with a fox.

Evidence: As a take on Jee Young’s recent post about making a collage with kids as a thoughtful reading response, my students responded with a collage to “Leah’s Pony” by Elizabeth Friedrich. This is a story of a young girl living during the Dust Bowl era who considers selling her prized pony to help save her family’s farm. The students considered the “author’s message” with evidence from text then illustrated their thinking by depicting what they would be willing to give up for another person.

Emmett's Pony

Emmett's Pony

Alissa's Pony

Alissa's Pony Alissa has a real horse and so this story was even dearer to her

Spoiler Alert: Leah, indeed, sells her pony to purchase her father’s tractor at auction. She then receives the pony back from the man she sold it to with a note indicating that it was too small for him to ride and too big for his grandchildren to ride.

I shared that my “pony” is giving up time, sleep, $$$ for books for my students. Ultimately, my “pony” would be having my students write in 15 years to say that they were doing a job that they loved.

favorite read-alouds
This list keeps growing. 

Here are some of my favorite read alouds as a teacher:

Chapter books:

  • Charlotte’s Web
  • The Mouse and the Motorcycle
  • The True Confessions of Charlotte Doyle
  • A Single Shard
  • Any book by Mildred D. Taylor

Picture books:

  • Fireboat
  • The Man Who Walked Between the Towers
  • The Lotus Seed
  • Summer Sands
  • My Freedom Trip
  • The Royal Bee
  • The Empty Pot
  • My Lucky Day
  • Weird Friends
  • Any book by Steve Jenkins!!

writing: show not tell
Here’s an idea from a colleague in real life who suggested that students may need some visual reminders to add lots of feeling in their writing. This is a portion of the emotion chart we composed together.

our emotions

our emotions

We have discussed how much more effective it is to show how you are skeptical, rather than writing, “She’s skeptical.” What would she be doing or saying to let you know that she feels this way? “She put her hand on her chin and looked out of the corner of her eyes.”

collaborating with unseen writers
Here’s a story that our class composed with other 3rd graders across the country. Sadly, the last teacher to sign up forgot to submit the ending and title. Feel free to compose your own:

Write your Story

We did.

World Read Aloud Day: Another great idea from Jee Young
Check out our correspondence with the author, Leslie Bulion. Her poetry books are AMAZING!

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first stage: 4 months out

snow at night

snow at night

Last night, I ran outside with little bits of ice and snow pelting my face. The icy flakes did not melt immediately on contact with my eyes, but stung before melting. Like being caught in a harmless sandstorm. I think about what I’m giving up and relish the cold, the ice accumulating on my fur-lined hoodie, and winter miles above the equator.

As I prepare to move to Jakarta, the whole thing feels like going away to college. I initially thought it was like planning your own “final departure” but I’ll be back in 2 years. So I’m going with the less dramatic college move, since I also have the option to be home for the summer and friends and family can visit.

I was at school the other day with my hair pulled back, and a colleague who knows about my upcoming move to Indonesia exclaimed, “Did you cut your hair?!! How many changes are you making in your life right now?”

She made me smile. “I actually sold my car and got a scooter. I went vegan.” As we both laughed, I thought about how this wasn’t that far from how drastically my life is going to flip.

Today I had my nieces over. We made waffles from scratch. I drove less than 5 miles to see my grandma. We talked about family. I helped her put her legs up. I drove home on uncluttered roads. These feel like luxuries now.

Mosquitos! Someone from Jakarta wrote to warn me about these pests. I would rather have a head cold, the stomach flu, pink eye . . . just about anything but have to deal constantly with them. Why am I going to Jakarta? Or will facing these unpleasantries and uncertainties in advance prepare me for what lies ahead?

I’m not sure, but as I slowly collect paperwork, scan and send it away–as I begin to make sure my car and condo are secured, and start to think about both in my new home in the Southern Hemisphere–I feel like I’m in a lazy canoe heading toward a waterfall.

Inertia was part of the reason I decided to get in the water. To avoid its lazy pull. 

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how a plane trip, a hotel stay and 4 conversations can change the course of your life

how it begins

Reading international teachers’ blogs like Teach to Inspire and Teach Travel Taste is like watching the swim teachers jump off the high dive. Their blog reflections take

yogafor granted that climbing above the crowd and letting yourself go is a viable option for anybody who wants to seize it. However, their seemingly effortless bravery can’t explain why or how I managed to step my bare foot on the first rung of the high dive of international teaching and begin to climb.

Less than a month ago, I booked a flight to San Francisco and reserved a hotel room to attend the Search Associates Job Fair. The opportunity opened up last minute due to a major component of my Search profile finally coming into place. I noticed the fair landed on the first winter break teachers in our district have had in over 10 years. It felt right. So I went.

how it unfolds

While there, I sensed my life merging with Lindsay and Joey of Teach, Travel Taste as I followed their suggestions from the Cambridge Fair down to extra thank you notes for interviews. QatarAs interviews and offers came in, my life suddenly intersected with Jee Young of Teach to Inspire in a dramatic way, as I Skype-interviewed for a job in Seoul, South Korea where she is currently from and then had another offer later on which sent me into decision making turmoil, just as she described in her post surrounding her recent experiences at the Bangkok fair. Her judicious email assessment and advice were both guarded and also generous. I remain grateful.

The stakes are so high! Each minute you’re at a fair gives you a taste of being on Chopped or Top Chef. Not a minute to lose and decisions could cost or benefit you in life-changing ways.

I went from focusing on just one country to taking to heart the advice of the fair director, Michael Williams, to not rule out any country. In fact, he told a story of a couple who came to the fair open to any country except one, and ended up accepting an offer from that very country. According to Mr. Williams, this couple has remained there for the past 3 years. I didn’t think this applied to me as I was planning to return to the country of my birth. As an adoptee, I had candid email exchanges with Jee Young about this as I am from Korea. I had carefully considered the implications. I was going to Korea.

how it takes a sudden turn

Until I answered what appeared to be a random email invitation to interview with a school in the Southern Hemisphere . . . I had requested more time after being offered a position to teach 4th or 5th grade at a school in Seoul via Skype (in the hotel lobby as I was too cheap to sign up for wi-fi in my hotel room) in order to at least rationalize my cross-country airfare by interviewing in person with recruiters actually at the San Francisco fair. The superintendent kindly agreed to a noon deadline.

Tick Tock. I went for a morning run.marriott run I called my parents. I made the pro / con list on hotel stationary. “Living in Korea” appeared on both sides. Then I went to the 9 a.m. interview with the school from the Southern Hemisphere.

After the interview, the recruiter asked for a second interview. I let him know of the 12:00 p.m. deadline from the first school offer in Korea. He rushed to schedule another time, but noon was the first that was available. I accepted and immediately requested more time from the school in Seoul. Both schools had interviewers who were from Canada. There is an undeniable warmth about Canadians. The middle school job at the school in the Southern Hemisphere seemed to be a package deal of my cliche life’s passions: technology, English Lit and teaching English Acquisition to speakers of other languages. It felt customized in a way that the elementary position had not.

By 5:30 p.m. I had interviewed with a third school–but told them about what was going on with the other two situations. By 5:30 p.m. I had also spoken with the second school with the middle school position 3 more times. The third interview was prompted by a call on my cellphone from the interviewer that sent me sprinting back from a restaurant while a new friend, Ana, got elephant_barour food (tempura salmon roll) to take out and followed me back to the hotel after accepting my cash for the order. By the fourth call back, I had an offer to teach at a middle school that practiced the Middle Years Program, a branch of the International Baccalaureate.

This time, I had until Wednesday to make my decision. I reluctantly emailed the school in Seoul who had made the initial offer to say that I had another offer and couldn’t let them know by the end of the day, which meant I declined their invitation to join the staff. Again, I thought of Jee Young, as she also mentioned how much more difficult it is to decline an offer than you might imagine as you had really personal and heart-felt conversations with your potential employers.  Also, the intensity of time constraints surrounding a major life change for the next 2 years of your life actually causes you to question everything, including your ability to see clearly.

As it turns out, I regretted turning down the initial offer while I was in my state of indecision about the middle school offer. However, when I returned home to Michigan and wrote the superintendent of the elementary job, expressing my regret, I received a definitive answer that it was too late to change my mind. This actually gave me more peace and permission to possibly accept the middle school offer which immediately regained its initial appeal.

I was able to correspond with a middle school teacher, Kim, at the school whose offer was still on the table. She was refreshingly up-front about the weather, the pollution and the atmosphere of the school. Because of her frankness to not shield anyone from the possible down-sides, I felt less apprehensive.

I had a conversation with my two third grade colleagues and my principal about making my decision that night. Most of the day I was 60% / 40%.

how it gets settled

On Tuesday night, after school, I drove down to my local FedEx, formerly Kinkos, and tried to fax the signed contract to the school. It would not go after 10 attempts. So I sent an email from my iPhone and thought, “This is how my life changes. By hitting ‘send.’” Then I decided to scan in the papers and send the contract via email.

splash!

They accepted. People from the school have subsequently sent warm welcomes via email–including Kim, who asked if I was into diving because it is a really popular activity where I have decided to live.

I’m moving to Jakarta, Indonesia to teach middle school.

Here are a few more photos from the San Francisco Search Associates job fair:

1) I sent my friend, Kimberly, this pic from the hotel room to show her the scarf she gave me as a good-luck gesture while on one of our infamous “Just going to return something at the mall” trips:

wet seal

2) After having lived in CA, I’ve always craved the In-and-Out since becoming a Michiganian. In Harold and Kumar style, I finally hunted one down after 3 attempts:

inandout

3) This one is for my dad:

water bird

4) There’s something about this picture that makes me smile:

airport

This decision is dedicated to my parents, the original international teachers, and friends near and far.

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why I love Stitcher so much

My most favorite app is Stitcher. I’ve put it on a list of “things I can’t live without.” It’s an app that delivers all of your favorite podcasts “without downloading or synching.” It updates automatically so you don’t have to be a slave to your iTunes sync. I’m really not being paid by Stitcher, but . . . I’m not opposed.

I love Stitcher so much that if I lost my iPhone, I’d actually be missing that companion more than anything else. It’s not like I wouldn’t care that I couldn’t contact friends and family, because when you think about it, there are so many ways to connect to them. For instance, once, when I was thinking more deliberately about NOT contacting a certain person, I realized that there are actually at least 5 or more ways that I could instantly contact him. Which makes things a lot worse because it’s hard to know which one to concentrate your will power on the most . . . My point being that direct contact, other than a phone, is possible. However, when it comes to having Stitcher in your pocket, delivering your favorite podcast “friends,” losing that would leave the biggest gap.

With Stitcher, you can build a radio station. Before I give you my playlist, a couple are prefaced with a serious announcement about how “the following podcast contains explicit language.” However, once you start listening, the content is really less offensive and more provocative in an intellectually or humorous way. Through Stitcher delivering weekly content, I have been a more faithful jogger / walker (allowing me an excuse to listen to podcasts and measuring my run in the length of the shows), yet also that person jogging by your house laughing out loud for no apparent reason . . .  a vicarious New Yorker / Chicagoan / Los Angelean.

My Stitcher Station Playlist:

1. All the Slate Podcasts:
-Slate Culture Gabfest: really you just have to experience this discussion to get the breadth of the topics, the range will astound and amuse you. Or maybe it won’t. Sometimes the dynamics of the 3 commentators, especially Steve Metcaffe can be wearying, but overall it’s like having cool New York friends when you live in the Midwest. (Not that there’s anything wrong with the Midwest)
-Slate Spoiler Specials: I read somewhere that actually finding out the ending enhances rather than detracts from the enjoyment of a movie. This was certainly the case for me after this podcast spoiled Catfish.
-Slate Audio Book Club: Again, very New York–ivy league-ish, but more accessible than you think in a housewife or old college friend with drop-ins from recent college grads kind of way.
-Slate Political Gabfest: This podcast got a shout-out from Stephen Colbert. The banter can seem a little overly combative to the Midwestern sensibility, but it’s like The Daily Show / Colbert Report’s more serious college roommate.
-Manners for the Digital Age: Advice for people who wonder if talking on a cell phone and flushing go together.
-Double X Podcast: Sorority reunion of bookish women.
-Hang up and Listen: Mike Pesca is the reason I listen to this conversation about sports at all. Yet, it’s the podcast I listen to the least frequently all the way through.  But still fun.

2. The Sporkful: I’ve recommended this to a friend with insomnia. Not because it puts you to sleep, but when you’re awake in the middle of the night you feel so alone and stripped of any sense of well-being. About 20 minutes with Marc and Dan and you realize that we still live somewhere that 2 grown men can take disproportional enjoyment from food. Not only that, they have time to focus enormous energy and passion on eating, reminding you that simple pleasures are truly possible.

3. Freakonomics Radio: If you haven’t read the book (like me) but appreciate, instead, when people spoon-feed weird associations and cool connections directly to your ear, this is the podcast for you. It feels like cheating since you could have read the book first, but when you get past that, it’s informative and satisfying. As a teacher, I definitely appreciated the School of One and Pandora pairing.

4. Filmspotting: The hosts have gone through a transition recently and their tastes are pretty guy-ish (2 male hosts primarily), but again someone took their passion to a level where they do a lot of work for you. To get a sense of the taste represented, I saw Hanna and Fish Tank on the hosts’ praise.

5. The Moth Radio: True stories. Told live. The name comes from the analogy that storytelling is like a light that draws moths to its flame. Most of the stories have the authentic feel of an HBO documentary/ series chopped up and produced by a revolving door of accidental storytelling citizens.

6. NPR Shows: Planet Money, Fresh Air, RadioLab, The Business, Wait Wait . . .

7. This American Life: The OG (Original Gangster), Ira Glass.

8. WTF: Marc Maron interviews comedians in a backstage shop talk way. My favorites? Donald Glover and Jason Sedakis. The sponsors and some of the intros are a bit iffy, and the actual interviews can veer into intervention-ish AA-y type conversation. Lots of self-disclosure. But interesting in a reality radio kind of way.

9. The Onion News Network: Quick bursts of comedic observations. Hit and Miss, but mostly spot-on.

10. Too Beautiful to Live: Also a good insomnia cure–in fact, I listen to it exclusively in the middle of the night. TBTL a slightly self-satisfied examination of life from a late 30s, early 40s perspective. Discussions that seem like those annoyingly compelling Facebook updates that are passed around, validating your experiences (Favorite restaurant, Pet Peeve, etc.)–you just can’t turn away like you’re looking in a mirror. Entertaining in a guilty pleasure sort of way.

If you download and enjoy Stitcher, don’t forget to tip the wait staff.

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bad day for an octopus

This piece was written for my 3rd graders as an example of a personal narrative. They helped me out with a “juicy hook,” “5-sense details” and a “wrap it up” ending.

Splat! Splat! Have you ever seen an octopus get spanked before? I have!

Once, in the summer, I was visiting a fish market in Busan, South Korea. It smelled very strong like the ocean had dried up and become a giant store.  Actually, it wasn’t completely dry, because there were bright tubs everywhere filled with salt water.  The tubs were red, blue and yellow.  Some of the tubs were huge aquariums and some were like kiddie pools. There were fish and lots of sea creatures inside. Everywhere the sound of water gurgling and sea creatures flopping and splashing flooded your ears. Even the air tasted a little salty from the mist.

Outside the fish market, an octopus the size of a small swim ring—that you use when your family brings you to the beach for the first time—was in one of the kiddie pools with lots and lots of other squirmy octopi.  It decided to slide out of the pool. Its little suckers on the back of each rubbery arm pulled it out of its shallow tub. The octopus made an attempt to return to the sea that was only one block away! It could also probably smell the ocean, its home, so very close.

Suddenly, a granny in a giant visor put an end to the octopus’ plan! She grabbed the octopus and spanked it before plopping it back in the pool.

I was across the street and looked when someone yelled, “That octopus just got spanked!” I couldn’t help but start laughing. It didn’t seem real at all!

What was more surprising is that later, an octopus—probably not that one—became my dinner. It was scary to eat something so different—I imagine, just like when the octopus tried to escape. But it was also brave! It wasn’t as rubbery as I thought it was going to be because it was raw, and cut up into little pieces. We dipped it in some tasty sesame oil. 

I had to pretend that it didn’t have suckers when I chewed and swallowed it or I might gag.

Both the octopus and I found ourselves in a strange, new place. We both tried something new even though it seemed crazy at the time. I’m sorry that the octopus’ day ended so tragically. But I will never forget it!

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